Hmmm...Its been long since i last signed in..
I was feeling inarticulate
Wish I could say the things I want to
or express my feelings without people having difficulty
trying to understand me...
Hate it when people gossip abt me and add alot of other stuff to the story.
.aarrgghhh..add chilli n spice to the story..
Why would pple trust other pple's words n not the ones tt come out from my mouth..
Feel so watched, so misunderstood.
I m no goody 2 shoes tt pple think i am
Wish I got get away from tt impression
I am not lying, I m not one
The stories others are creating abt me are affecting me
Nevermind. In chinese, real gold not scared of fire..

There are more things more important. If we dont understand or comprehend.
How will they??..

Got eye rings after all the late nitez with my
section. None of them like to sleep at night.
Usually wanna go somewhere do something but
dont like to club. Its burning a hole in my pocket too.
All the taxi fares..all the drinks or food. Still need to
pay for my leica. Pay my dues..wahzz...I realise how
little money I have. Expensive hobbies. Tts why....

Things to do when at home:
Fix up clipless
Send FEd 5 for service
See wat things can be sold away

Wow. I just woke up. Been sleeping from 10 til abt
10 mins ago. A whole 7 hours. Didnt noe I was so
depraved of sleep. Or was I just being lazy...

Born on a different cloud

Born on a different cloud
From the ones that have burst round town
It's no surprise to me
That yer classless, clever and free...

Loaded just like the gun
You're the hero that’s still unsung
Living on borrowed time
You’re my sun and you’re gonna shine

Talking to myself again
This time I think I’m getting through
It’s funny how you think
It’s funny when you do

Lonely soul
Busy working overtime
Nothing ever gets done
Specially when your hands are tied

Lonely soul
Baking up your mother's pride
Nothing ever gets done
Not until your war's won

Last mission locally.
Once we get thru this week, it will be our last mission
locally so happy!!..No more mosquitoes or getting wet or mud.
Haha..effectively i have 1 n a half more months of training
and then bye bye!!!..Wee!! So cool...but will have no income..
Muz tink of a way..

Cant get to sleep.
Dont noe why I am so afraid of cold.
Shivering even from the wind coming from the fan. 5am
in the morning. The hawkers are probably getting their food
ready. Once the sun rises, the city awakes. Roads get busy
again, people rushing ard caught up in the hustle n bustle.
For now, its all quiet.
I ask myself
Y do I still hold on to when I know it has slipped away,
did I not take my chances, or was it no chance at all??
Questions cloud my mind..
Wish I could see the big picture and not the small part of the jig
saw puzzle i have..
I wish some words were never said, tt things will go back
to the way they were. Guess it wont, live with it..
Silly me...silly me..

Stop Crying Your Heart Out

Hold up...
Hold on...
Don't be scared..
You'll never change what's been and gone,
May your smile,
may your smile,
Shine on
shine on
Don't be scared
don't be scared
Your destiny will keep you on,
Cos all of the stars,
Have faded away,
Just try not to worry,
You'll see them some day,
Just take what you need,
And be on your way,
And stop crying your heart out!
Get up
Come on
Why you scared?
You'll never change what's been and gone
Cos all of the stars
Have faded away,
Just try not to worry,
You'll see them some day,
Just take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Cos all of the stars
Have faded away,
Just try not to worry,
You'll see them some day,
Just take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out)x2

Cos we're all of the stars
We are fading away,
Just try not to worry,
You'll see us some day,
Just take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out


Stop, stop daydreaming...
Dont be silly...

Been watching Tian Long Pa Bu the serial china version.
The story's very long but very interesting. I wonder wat
ever happened to my pa bu comics. Anyway I was thinking
in those times, like all the main characters had a goal,
something to accompolish. Hmmm...the series got alot
pretty girls and cool action. And the story tho it follows
closely with the original book but its very interesting.
So now how??.. Band of brothers or tian long??..hmm..

My intercessor is my friend as my eyes pour out
tears to God; on behalf of a man he pleads with God
as a man pleads for his friend.
Job 16:20-21

Trust, trust, trust...teach me to..
To leave my life in ur hands
Release my grip on the steering wheel
Having full confidence..

Ask myself wat am I doing???..
I need a answer, a confirmation

My bro left for london this morning.
two whole weeks he will be there.
With my leica. Hope he doesnt spoil
it. Esp. since the temperature is so
drastically different.

Packed my room again. After my bro keep passsing
things to me. My room had become so much smaller.
But after shifting and throwing many things away.
My room is bigger again. Yea. Finally dared to pick up
my old jounral and read. Some entries were funny some
reminded me of sweet sweet memories. Dont noe I wrote
so much...I have forgottten so much. Told myself nv to
forget but I still did.

Not a single word from u these days
Why make me high only to throw me back down
Why leave things hanging
Patience thinning, Heart aching

I ask myself what am I doing
Why am I so upset
Dont know what to think
Hating you but missing you
Crying all alone in the dark

All alone you fill my mind
Heard my heart shatter
I tell myself to wait
But what if the worst happens

I miss u..

It's alright to tell me what you think about me
I won't try to argue or hold it against you
I know that you're leaving you must have your reasons
the season is calling and your pictures are falling down

Juz bought Taxi- Full option vcd
Got the mtv on my com already yah!!..Can watch e
cute ger over n over again. She's really very cute.
No wonder people say the pastures are always
greener on the other side.