Visual Treats by Liwei

More than Useless

Today I got back my biotech test paper, I did quite badly, I passed la but in view of everyone else almost getting full marks and also my thai pop quiz that went by today which i totally didnt really understand wat the teacher was saying. Maybe for thai I was lazy to study for the pop quiz, i sorta saw it coming. But getting two blows in one day was quite demoralising not include my pai ka-ness. I feel so so demoralized. Thinking of it makes me feel down again. My biotech lecturer asked me after class if there was anything he could be of help to, i explained that I somehow forgot to study one of the chapters. He reminded me that he felt I wasnt doing very well with my assignments too. I felt I did ok for the assignments but I understand wat he is trying to say. Sometimes, I feel its very hard to be the average in my class especially since they are really very intelligent and hardworking. Really wanna leave behind my studies, only sociology, thai and southeast asia to keep me going.

Like in the song,

I FEEL LIKE
I WOULD LIKE
TO BE SOMEWHERE ELSE
DOING SOMETHING THAT MATTERS

Hope I get over these feeling soon, well anyway free day tomorrow!!!!

More than Useless - Relient K
I feel like
I would like
To be somewhere else
Doing something that matters
And I'll admit here
While I sit here
My mind wastes away
And my doubts start to gather

What's the purpose?
It feels worthless
So unwanted like I've lost all my value
I can't find it
Not in the least bit
And I'm just scared
So scared that I'll fail You

Sometimes I think that I'm not any good at all
And sometimes I wonder why
Why I'm even here at all
But then You assure me
I'm a little more than useless
And when I think that I can't do this
You promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once

So I say if I can't
Do something significant
I'll opt to leave most opportunities wasted
And nothing trivial
That life can give you will
Measure up to what might have replaced it
Too late, look
My date book
Is packed full of days that were empty and now gone
And I bet
That regret
Will prove to get me to improve in the long run

Sometimes I think that I'm not any good at all
And sometimes I wonder why
Why I'm even here at all
But then You assure me
I'm a little more than useless
And when I think that I can't do this
You promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once

I'm a little more than useless
And I never knew I knew this
Was gonna be the day
Gonna be the day that I would do something right
Do something right for once

I noticed
I know this
Weak is a symbol of how I use my time
Resent it
I spent it
Convincing myself
The world's doing just fine
Without me (without me)
Doing anything of any consequence
Without me (without me)
Showing any sign of ever making sense
Of my time
It's my life
And my right to use it like I should
Like He would
For the good
Of everything that I would ever know

I'm a little more than useless
And when I think that I can't do this
You promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once

I'm a little more than useless
And I never knew I knew this
Was gonna be the day
Gonna be the day that I would do something right
Do something right for once