Juz got my fed 5 haha....wee..sweet. A fully manual
camera..robust n ancient. I am sucker for ancient cameras.
=) Cant wait to shoot stuff..but the cost of developing just scared me.
Y are all my hobbies so expensive..


Juz blew my expenditure. I think...A little money left in my bank.

So far away- Staind

This is my life
Its not what it was before
All these feelings I’ve shared
And these are my dreams
That I’d never lived before
Somebody shake me
Cause I, I must be sleeping

Now that we're here,
It's so far away
All the struggle we fought was in vain
All the mistakes,
One life contained
They all finally start to go away
Now that we're here its so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive and I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today

These are my words
That I’ve never said before
I think I’m doing ok
And this is the smile
That I’ve never shown before

Somebody shake me
Cause I, I must be sleeping

I'm so afraid of waking
Please don't shake me
Afraid of waking
Please don't shake me




U r right here with me, but so far away...

Be different
Illuminate
Encourage

Tonight, I Feel Close To You
Lyrics: Kuraki Mai & Yan-zi (aka Stephanie Sun)

Close my eyes and feel your mind
Time has passed
I walk like a shadow
Never knew
What I am going through
You touch my heart and take my breath away

Whisper on the wind so softly
Let the bright stars fill our dreams with love
Reach for your hand (you're holding my key)
and you show me the way

* Tonight, I feel close to you
You open my door and light the sky above
When I need a friend, you are there right by my side
I wish we could stay as one
I wish we could stay forever as one

All the tears that haunt my past
You promised
it'll be better tomorrow
Play that song
You and I listened to
And let it gently ease our pain

Tender rain drops from the blue sky
Flowers blooming, life is so divine
like sunlight on a stream (you're holding my key)
You show the world to me

** Tonight, I feel close to you
You open my door and light the sky above
When I need a friend, you are there right by my side
I wish we could stay as one

So much love in this beautiful world
Search for the brightest star in the sky
You will find the meaning of love
Don't be afraid (Don't be afraid), Just be youself (Just be yourself)
We need this love... I've never knew

Just found out abt this website. www.offstone.com
Its like a gathering place for enthu photographers in the
country. I was shocked at how many pple giving opinions
n advice there. The things they talk abt are not even my level.
I noe point n snap photography is on e rise but I didnt realise tt
there were so many pple tt take photography seriously. Looks I
have to buck up if I wanna be successful in this area. I need help!!
I dont noe how to fully utilie my flash and my viewfinder. Irritating coz the
viewfinder is like a rangfinder's its on top of the lens. So not very sure if u
cropped of the head of ur subject if u take too high. Hmmm...practise practise.

Watched a gruelling duel between Henman n
Canas just now at Pastor Fuman's place. A whole
5 hours ++ worth of good tennis. Both opponents
in top form. I was wondering while watching if I wasnt
there I wont even bother abt watching the match. I probably
missed one of the best games I have seen in years. 5 hours
could be spent sleeping, studying, daydreaming. 5 hours to
someone else eg doing duty, or something boring can pass
very slowly. Time doesnt go faster or slower. Its all in e mind.
Dont noe wat I driving at but ya..time passes in differnet ways
to different pple.

Haizz..Its been like tt for the past 1 year. Everytime I see
my uncle he will ask me to change my university course.
Due a lack of job availability the tt area and because it
probably means I have to take up a government job.
I chose the course because I was interested in it, not
because if its prospects and also because I didnt want to do
physics. Environmental Engineering comprises more of chemistry
then physics.

This is the Chapel tt was featured on M1's newest advert. The one on the no of
hours in one person's life. The poor bridegroom waiting for his late bride who is
stuck in a traffic jam. Rings a bell??...No??..Anyway this was my school chapel,
used to go for mass there because tho I am not Catholic, I choose Christianity
for my religious moral edu. Though I only attended very little masses. The masses
there kinda shaped who I m. Stepping in, u feel the warm rays of light bursting thru
the blue stained glass portrait of Jesus on the cross. A blue hue because of the light.
Its all quiet. Everyone in a solemn mood.
One of my favourite places...

1 Tim 1:12-17
The Lord's Grace to Paul

I thank Christ Jesus our Lord, who has given me strength, that he considered me faithful, appointing me to his service. Even though I was once a blasphemer and a persecutor and a violent man, I was shown mercy because I acted in ignorance and unbelief. The grace of our Lord was poured out on me abundantly, along with the faith and love that are in Christ Jesus.
Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners--of whom I am the worst. But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his unlimited patience as an example for those who would believe on him and receive eternal life. Now to the King eternal, immortal, invisible, the only God, be honor and glory for ever and ever. Amen.

Took this from Shuhui's blog...=)

Excessive Reasoning!

The mind of the flesh [sense and reason] is death... but the mind of the Spirit is life.
Romans 8:6 AMP

Do you have a need to control things? To find a solution for every problem? To have a back-up plan in case God doesn't come through the way you think He should? Have you noticed that the more you try to fix things, the more anxiety you experience? Paul calls this, "The mind of the flesh." Fixing is the opposite of trusting; usually you can't do both. Now that doesn't mean God wants you to be mindless or helpless; it just means He wants you to live by faith, not head knowledge! When you learn to trust God and operate in "the mind of the Spirit," you experience peace in spite of the circumstances.

One of the pitfalls of excessive reasoning is that it causes you to become double-minded and stuck. Listen, "A man of two minds is unstable and unreliable and uncertain about everything" (James 1:8 AMP). Does that describe you?

Instead of always trying to figure things out - learn to be comfortable not knowing, and start trusting the One who does! Make a decision today that every time you feel anxious, you'll stop and pray: "Lord, I'm not going to try and figure this out myself; I'm bringing it to You and I'm waiting for Your answer." When you stop struggling with the when's, why's, and how's, you'll begin to experience God's peace in a way you never have before. You'll also position yourself for Him to intervene on your behalf. So make a decision today - to let go and let God!

Been watching Tian Long Pa Bu in the rec room. I realised e
character Mu Xiao Jie looks like my crush in secondary school.
No not in my secondary but the girl I see on the bus everyday. Has the
same face size, small nose and small mouth. Dont noe wat attracted me
to her. Everyday I would hope to see her board the bus. I usually sit on
the upper deck and she chooses to sit on e lower one. One period I sat at
the lower decker just to see her. But I always fall asleep soon after so I
thought It was a bad idea and went back to sit on the comfy upper deck
again. Admire her from afar...
She's like one year younger then me and we live close by. I didnt really get to see
her after secondary 2 the last time I did was during some prize presentation of
some edusave or bursary at the committee centre. She was in the same row as me
and was right behind me. But I guess she didnt seem to recognise me. After all it was
I notice her and not the other way round.
Well the girl in the serial really reminded me of her.

I praise e Lord for best frens who always there to support and encourage.
If our worlds crumble, I know we will be there supporting each other.
Thank You Lord..

Trust the Lord with all your heart and lean not on
your own understanding; in all ways acknowledge
Him, and he will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3:5-6



Muz learn not to worry so much. One day I will get used to it.
One day the same thought will not pain me so much. One day.

Me..at Chinese Garden

Juz watched Naked Ambition with my camp mates b4 heading back home.
The show is very sex orientated but I felt its message of friendship of
brotherhood was so much stronger. On my way back home I was thinking
of the many friendships tt blossomed in my life but I just let them slip away.
Especially in transitions periods like from primary to secondary to jc to ns.
It may not be too late but I just dont know where to start. Being the quiet n
not very chatty me. I bet I cant hold a conversation with them that will last more
than 2 minutes.
Haizz..maybe I m just tired. I realise I return home full of feelings everytime I
head home from outside especially when its quite late. Not towards anyone or anything
in particular. Maybe e silence triggers these feelings. I just cant explain. Blues i guess..
midnight blues if there's such a thing.



Nothing compares to you- Stereophonics

It's been seven hours and fifteen days
Since you took your love away
I go out every night and sleep all day
Since you took your love away
Since you been gone I can do whatever I want
I can see whomever I choose
I can eat my dinner in a fancy restaurant
But nothing
I said nothing can take away these blues,
'Cause nothing compares
Nothing compares to you

It's been so lonely without you here
Like a bird without a song
Nothing can stop these lonely tears from falling
Tell me baby where did I go wrong?
I could put my arms around every girl I see
But they'd only remind me of you
went to the doctor guess what he told me
Guess what he told me?
He said, boy, you better have fun
No matter what you do
But he's a fool ...
'Cause nothing compares ...
Nothing compares to you ...

All the flowers that you planted, mama
In the back yard
All died when you went away
I know that living with you baby was sometimes hard
But I'm willing to give it another try
'Cause nothing compares ...
Nothing compares to you ...

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go
And maybe, I'll find out
The way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave should fall
It would fall upon us all
Well I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you
....
If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go...

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us followin' our own direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids act like what they see in the cinema
Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity

Help!! I m bored to death in camp.. help!!!!

Help...

=( help...

The history of the FED factory is very interesting. The major goal of the Soviet Union, after the revolution,was to become totally self sufficient. This goal was to be realized in all areas of manufacture as soon as possible. The intention was to make the " REVOLUTION " totally independent of the outside world. Anton Makarenko was a Ukrainian educator who had a vision of a different type of a school. He felt that the best form of education was to combine classroom studies with productive labor. He also envisioned a military style discipline system with the institution organized into multiple production units. The intention was that the production units would compete with each other. The second player in this drama is by far the most unlikely. Felix Edmondovich Dzerzhinsky was a Polish nobleman who wholeheartedly embraced Communism and the revolution. He was to rise high in the early communist government. His most long lasting contribution was as the founder of the secret police, the CHEKA. CHEKA is the initials of the official title, All-Russian Extraordinary commission for combating counter-revolution,sabotage and speculation. This organization was to change its' name several times over the years becoming first the GPU, then the OGPU, then the NKVD and finally the KGB. After the revolution there were great numbers of children whose parents were missing or dead. These "besprizorniki" as they were called were considered to be a great problem to the revolution. After reading a paper on the problem Dzerzhinsky offered to put himself and the CHEKA behind an effort to solve this problem. After Dzerzhinskys' death in 1926 the OGPU decided to build a childrens' commune as a memorial. In December of 1927 the " Trudkommuna imeni F.E. Dzerzhinskogo " (F.E. Dzerzhinsky Labor Commune) was opened with Makarenko as its' head. Initially the commune manufactured wooden furniture and later copies of Black & Decker electric drills. In 1932 it was decided to make copies of the "Leica". This was a very optimistic undertaking as this represented a level of complexity and fine tolerances never before seen in Russia. The Leica was selected because it was the most respected camera in the world. Initially approximately 30 copies of the Leica A were made as the first prototype run in late 1932 and 1933. However Leitz had the Leica II with a coupled rangefinder in production by this time and full production was switched to this model in 1934. None of these cameras have lugs to mount a strap.
Hmm..realised tt Russian antique cameras have a rich history..n cheap some more. Wat more a Leica copy..cool... Hehe wanna get one of these. Quite cool..mass produced and sold in bulk reducing the prices of these cameras by alot..

It never ceases to amaze me that Christian hope rests on a man whose message was rejected
& whose love was spurned, who was condemned as a crimminal & given a sentence of capital
punishment- Philip Yancey

yawnzz..nitezz..

All alone on a Sunday morning
Outside I see the rain is falling
Inside I'm slowly dying
But the rain will hide my crying, crying, crying
And you
Don't you know my tears will burn the pillow
Set this place on fire
'Cause I'm tired of your lie
All I needed was a simple "Hello"
But the traffic was so noisy that you could not hear me cry

I gave you my love in vain
My body never knew such pleasure,
My heart never knew such pain
(And you) You leave me so confused
Now I'm all cried out, over you.

Cryin' over you, yeah
Never wanted to see things your way,
Had to go astray
For why was I such a fool (Why was I such a fool)
Now I see that the grass is greener
Is it too late for me to find my way home,
How could I be so wrong?

Leaving me all alone
Don't you know my tears will cause an inferno
Romance of the flames
Why should I take the blame?
You were the one who left me neglected (So sorry baby)
Apology not accepted
Add me to the broken hearts you've collected

I gave you all of me (Gave you all of me)
How was I to know,
You would weaken so easily

I don't know what to do (I don't know what to do)
Now I'm all cried out (All cried out)
Over you

I gave you my love in vain
My body never knew such pleasure,
My heart never knew such pain
And you

You left me so confused

Now I'm all cried out
Now I'm all cried out
Over you

Like this song.. :)

I stopped at my tracks.
Threw down whatever I was carrying, looked up to the horizon and admired the sunrise.
A new day has come. Everything looked asleep. Only us, carrying casualities on the stretcher.
But It was all over. Tired and sweating profusely, its over i tot to myself.
3 more to go tho but tt will be another day's problem

Yesterdae. Mcf dinner.
Saw some of the people who faciliated the mcf camp i went for. Haha..tt time I was so dumb I didnt even noe tt a colonel is so high up in rank. I tot it was only a small fry haha. Saw my ex-oc, n 2 other ocs of diff. coys. I saw them last year also but I wonder why they were there. Something e speaker said tt really caught me. He said tt the old testament is a book of grace. N he quoted e eg of Adam n Eve. "You must not eat fruit from the tree that is in the middle of the garden, and you must not touch it, or you will die." But they didnt die becoz of grace. =)

Today power session was really power. Uncle Richard shared abt the convenant. The convenant with Noah. Den the convenant with Abraham. Den abt the 10 commandments. Den Christ who came down to be tt one sacrifice for all sins.
The tough part was all e questions Uncle Richard posted. It made us think so much we exhausted after the first few.
Namely:
Why did God choose Noah?
Why did God make a convenant with Noah? God is so powerful why did he have to promise Noah not to flood e earth again??
Why Abraham??.
Why did God make a convenant with Abraham??
hmm..e others i forgot liaozz...-these answers are not hard answer but e subsequent qns he asked made it hard. N i am very tired. I cant tink now.
Sometimes I take a peek at wat the power kids are doing during service. Wonder how much actually goes it. Like in reading e bible. The verse to be read can be repeated so many times n they still dont noe which verse or where its at. =|
Hmm...maybe time will change them..hopefully.


Looking at greenery can help with stress..Haizz..dont noe why e petals abit blur..anyway God bless..

This is my Father's world,
and to my listening ears
All nature sings,
and round me rings the music of the spheres.

This is my Father's world,
the birds their carols raise,
The morning light, the lily white,
declare their Maker's praise.

This is my Father's world: I rest me in the thought
Of rocks and trees, of skies and seas;
His hand the wonders wrought.
This Is My Father's World

This is my Father's world.
O let me ne'er forget
That though the wrong seems oft so strong,
God is the ruler yet.

This is my Father's world:
why should my heart be sad?
The Lord is King; let the heavens ring!
God reigns; let the earth be glad!

This is my Father's world:
He shines in all that's fair;
In the rustling grass I hear Him pass;
He speaks to me everywhere.
In the rustling grass I hear Him pass;
He speaks to me everywhere.

Feeling depressed, stressed, life is sucking e last breath off ur lungs??..hehe~ slow down n take time to enjoy God's creations. Take a walk in e park, e most refreshing thing to do..=)

Behold!! E tiger

Lazy one too

Yawnzz..

Almost time to go back
Onto e other side of the red dot
Distance pulls us apart
But fret not
U will appear in my dreams
Juz as U have..always..

Haizz..my cold has gotten worse feel so much phlem in my lung.
Cant breath properly. Breathless sometimes. Hope its nothing serious.
Juz dont understand why my nose runs every morning.

Going for New year day's prayer meeting was a good idea. Made me
think of alot of things I usually just put aside. Things I put over God..Its
easy to say put God first. But can u?? When monday comes and u feel alone
against the world. Like there's no one who's going through the same
situation or anyone willing to stretch their hands to help u thru. Prayers
for others friends, family, church ministries, harvesters in the field..blah
blah..The world does not evolve ard u. We are a community, oh-han-nah -family..no one gets left behind or forgotten :) We are a family, supporting and
encouraging each other.
Sometimes feel I am so dumb. Why do I always look at e short term goals
n not the long term implications??..When I watched LOTR yesterdae. The
one thing that I brought away was not only friendship, fellowship..blah
blahz..wat Pee says.. But I could see e drive, e goal, e hope in the eyes
of the charactors. Failure may seem to be at e door but fear not, for all
hope isnt lost. The purpose driven actions, they know what they want.
Things may happen, loved ones lost, hearts broken but the vision of a
tomorrow without evil is so strong in them. Wat drives me??..As I face
tomorrow, will I yield to God's will or crumble. Godlum desired e ring( short term)
in turn it destroyed him..his sanity, humanity(long term)..Haha..juz tot of this..